I never meant for it too be like this. I dont care that I dont go everywhere? I have my own life too. Its just that it would be nice to feel included again. But thats fine. I'll just stay out of your way. I love you like a sister. And when something is dear to me, I tend to hang onto it for dear life. Its a problem of mine yes, but it is also something Im working on changing. So I dont want you too hate me, and I dont want you too feel caged or whatnot.
Its also hard for me too completely express myself sometimes. So I get frustrated and yeah, become a 'bitch'. I want you in my life, but its getting to be to much. I dont know what to do anymore. Honestly I dont. I need help. Serious help.
There is so much on my mind right now. I'm so stressed out that the littlest thing pisses me off. And hell, sometimes I create those little things so I can go off in a rage. I get it, its stupid, it sucks, I hate it, and Im trying to change it. I just need someone that is willing too stand by me the whole time. I need someone that hasnt already written me off.
Just a little background on me
- Izzy
- Edmonton, Alberta, Canada
- I baisically grew up in this miserable town called Kelowna, so I have acquired a unique view of human behaviors. I've been moved around my whole life. In and out of foster homes. So needless to say, Im just a little bitter about the world. But Im a nice, caring person for the most part. What I lack in external means, qualification or ability, I make up for with a true and dedicated heart. I am not a victim therefore I do not need to be rescued. I am empowered by patience or self-worth and my gift is emotional availability and devotion.
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