These are just memories, maybe they have been embellished by adjusting to traumas, maybe through the passing of time realities faded and the way I want to perceive things took the upper hand, maybe truths have been tainted to make the memory of myself more bearable.

- Inge Iwanowsky (1996)

April 17, 2010

... X2

I hate it when you steal my friends. Like, its fine that your friends with them too, but dont forget that they were mine first.

You call yourself my best friend, but you walk all over me? Fuck that. I dont get you at all. Seriously, its time you fuck off.

...

I dont get why your like this. Your attitude changes one second too the next. All I said what that if he's falling asleep, Innisfail is closer. Like fuck. Some times Im almost ready to say fuck you and leave. No joke.

I cant bloody stand your mood swings anymore. Like fuck. Your the cause of at least HALF of my stress load. Its almost like its better Im not your friend, cause then at least I wont be ignored and walked on by you.

There you go

There you go again. Stealing my friends.
Thanks for nothing bitch

Yeah...

I never meant for it too be like this. I dont care that I dont go everywhere? I have my own life too. Its just that it would be nice to feel included again. But thats fine. I'll just stay out of your way. I love you like a sister. And when something is dear to me, I tend to hang onto it for dear life. Its a problem of mine yes, but it is also something Im working on changing. So I dont want you too hate me, and I dont want you too feel caged or whatnot.

Its also hard for me too completely express myself sometimes. So I get frustrated and yeah, become a 'bitch'. I want you in my life, but its getting to be to much. I dont know what to do anymore. Honestly I dont. I need help. Serious help.

There is so much on my mind right now. I'm so stressed out that the littlest thing pisses me off. And hell, sometimes I create those little things so I can go off in a rage. I get it, its stupid, it sucks, I hate it, and Im trying to change it. I just need someone that is willing too stand by me the whole time. I need someone that hasnt already written me off.

November 9, 2009

Sorry about that...

Sorry folks,
I moved.
So I have had no internets for a while.
Ah haah.

So yeah,
Me and Jason are no more.
Blah.
I hate men.
Life sucks ass.

October 11, 2009

LOL KAI SO

I just realised,
That I mostly relate to teenage girl music.
Fuck.
This fails EPICLY
Oh wells

October 8, 2009

Wow, kay so...

Now apparently we are flying out too edmonton on October 30th.
I have no idea whats going on.
I need to do laundry,
But like, Im really lazy.