These are just memories, maybe they have been embellished by adjusting to traumas, maybe through the passing of time realities faded and the way I want to perceive things took the upper hand, maybe truths have been tainted to make the memory of myself more bearable.

- Inge Iwanowsky (1996)

September 30, 2009

F.M.L

So I worked this morning,
and felt like I was going to puke my guts up.

Then I went and saw friends at my old school,
which awoke old feelings for people.

THEN, I pretty much got dummped.
Went to my best friends place,
got her stuff from her ex's house (talk about drama),
went out for supper with her dad.

Got back to her place to find out she's not comming back
cause she was out with another boy.
So I got a ride home
and then pretty much got dumped again.

This is all happening a day AFTER
I found out my sister is getting adopted out of the family.


OH and I love how you dont have the balls to admit what you did.
I mean man up.
I wont care.
I just want you to admit that you used me.

September 24, 2009

So...

I dont know what to say to you.
I've said it all already.

Im waiting for your reply.

Blahh....

I dunno what to do.
Im so confused.
You say all this,
But then I dont hear from you again?

Srsly boy, make up your mind mmkai?
This is getting rediculous.
I was acctually CRYING over you last night.

Its sad, cause I dont know what to do anymore.
I mean, I like you a shit ton,
But it seems your playing me
Just like every other guy.

Fuck, fuck FUCK

September 22, 2009

WEW!!

So glad we're on talking terms again!
It makes me happy =]

And wow,
Why do you think Im pissed off?
Srsly, make up your fucking mind

September 20, 2009

Fuck you!

You dont even try to find out how Im feeling.
All you do is tear me down,
You treat me like Im five.

This is getting rediculous.
Maybe I should just do it so I can stop causing you 'pain'.

September 19, 2009

Humm dee dum....

I unno what to say,
I mean, today has been so uneventful.
I think the highlight of my day was talking to you /blush.

Oh booo...Im just so bored.
I dont know what to do with myself,
This blows chunks.

September 18, 2009

Eee gad

You leave me speachless almost everytime we talk...
And that doesn't happen alot...

Cred: Chase

You're a disappointment
Your word means less than a lie.
You used to mean so much
Now you've become just another regret
It seems like good enough is all i'll get
Honesty doesn't exist
Lies and betrayal are all you're about
You make me wish i had no heart.

So like...

I dont get you!
Or men in general!

At first it was amazing,
Now I dunno what to think.
I hate how you play with my emotions
You have driven me to the brink!

Wow...I rhymed...
lkijefisuhgy
See how badly you have me flustered???

I unno...

I feel bad for just sitting here,
When your most likely crying in the other room.
But I dont know what you want me to do.

If I go in there,
All your going to do is whine, and complain.
But Im your friend.
Shouldnt I just help you out?

Ugh....such a dilemma!!
I unno what to do!
Fuck fuck fuck!

Oh come on!

Make up your fucking mind,
And stop playing around like this.

You WERE not kidding around,
You were being an ass hole.
Like come on!

Im not an idiot, I can see right through you!

STFU

Srsly,
You have a girlfriend.
Stop.
Its really getting annoying.

Im just too nice to say it to your face,
Im sorry, but come on man!
You claim you love her,
But you keep comming onto me?

Ugh...leave me alone >.<

Oh gosh /blush

Oh man, you make me so happy.
I may have only known you for a little while,
But you just fill my heart with so much hope.
Im glad we started talking.

Just please, please dont hurt me.
Im begging.

Really? REALLY?

This is what I mean.
Whenever he's over,
Its ALL about him.
I get shoved to the side.

It pisses me off.
But honestly,
I can stand it.
Knowing you dont REALLY want to be with him,
And that you tell your ex, WHO HIT YOU,
That you love him.

Oh well.
Life is life.

September 17, 2009

Ugh...

You dont even ask.
You just asume.

It makes me feel like your taking advantage of me.
Makes me feel like an object.

Just ONCE could we do something my way?
Come on. Is it that hard?

GOD YOUR A BITCH SOMETIMES!

When I say I dont want to hang out,
All you do is go off about how Im a bitch.
And try and guilt me into shit.
But oh no,
When I ask you to hang out and you say no (as always)
I just say 'oh, okay'

Srsly, grow the fuck up
And realise that the world does NOT revolve around you.
Stfu, and leave me alone.